I feel like i want to commit suicide??

Don't kill yourself!! He's the one you need to leave. If he really treats you like that then there's no point on you sticking around anymore!! Never let him just push you around. If he really loved you at all he wouldn't talk like that. Don't waste anymore time on him! Find someone new and better who won't treat you like crap. You can get out of it. All you have to do is stand up to him. Talk to him about it first and if that doesn't work then I say ditch him!! Find someone who will love and appreciate you more than he ever could!!